Day 87

"But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ -what is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ." (Philippians 3:7-8)

I love my sleep, but I love my baby more.  I love my freedom, but I love my baby more.  More than my pretty clothes (now with spit up on them), my sporty car (now a van), my high heels (not on your life while holding my baby!), my tidy hair (yanked on), my sense of worldly importance, my financial stability, even my friends and extended family. So quickly I realize I would "lose all things" to gain/keep this baby. Paul has that zeal (and more) for Christ - he'd give up anything and everything for Christ's sake. Would I? Would I even give up this baby? I think of Abraham - no wonder even God marveled at his great faith (Genesis 22:12). Forsaking anything, even his precious promised heir, at God's command he almost sacrificed Issac on the altar. I'm learning so much about sacrifice, Lord and understand it better each time something I used to care about becomes "rubbish" to me as I choose my baby over those things. Like yesterday, when I grabbed the closest cloth available - my own pillowcase - to catch baby's spit up!   Help me to see more clearly how to apply this passionate, sacrificial love to my love for You, Lord, as I humbly contemplate the ssacrificial love you had for me on that cross. 

Tip: Whenever you need to give up something for your child's sake, do so joyfully, gratefully, and as an offering to the Lord.. Resentment will eventually eat you up and kill your future relationship with your baby.